Savannah Yesterday

OK.

It is way too early for me to write in detail about the day drip to Savannah, the work, and reading; however, I have to say I had a great deal of much needed fun yesterday. The workshop was great and the coffee house was FULL for the reading.

I’m certain the Savannah trip is the window I wrote about yesterday.

Explaining the Drama

A number of my coworkers and friends have been worried about me lately because I haven’t seem my usually peppy self. The truth of the matter is that I can no longer continue to pretend that everything is OK because the pretending is tedious and leaves me feeling overwhelmed and drained.

If it wasn’t bad enough that I was stupid enough to put up with physical abuse, my former partner has now decided to slander my name using none other than a blog. I didn’t want to bring my personal drama to I Was Born Doing Reference Work In Sin; however, I feel I have no choice as my former partner is using the web to to slander my name. This me being real… being open… and telling you what’s going on….

The EX is an angry person, and I am too, so I can’t knock him for that. We’re splitting ways, which means we are both moving. He’s upset from a financial standpoint about the move. For the last five months I have paid 75% of the rent and allowed him to be late with paying me back for bills. I know– Piss on me once, shame on you. Piss on me twice, shame on me.

The EX also cheated on me in December of 2007 while visiting his family in Houston for Christmas. I fly out to meet a chunk of his family for the first time, and it was my first Christmas away from my family. I do have to say, at least he waited until I left the city before he cheated on me. I suspected that he cheated after seeing some very friendly pictures on Myspace; however, I decided to believe him when denied that anything happened However, it all came out last month– he finally admitted to cheating.

THEN I discovered that the EX had been responding to and posting ADs on Craigslist. He had 150 emails in the email account titled AtlBlackBook, which he created just for his Craigslist fun.

Now, I’m the bad guy.

I am tired of being angry, and I am freaking exhausted.

One of my favorite lines from FRIED GREENS TOMATOES is, “God doesn’t close a door without opening a window.” Well, I could really use that window right about now.

MondoDisappointment

Well, I was supposed to be part of the MondoHomo reading this Sunday; however, I have decided not to join some of my fellow poets who happen to be friends. This reading has been thrown together in a matter of weeks, and it is quite disappointing. We received information on our location within one week of the reading. Then the organizer sent a flier to the featured poets yesterday…. yes, a flier on Wednesday to promote an event on Sunday. However, this isn’t any Sunday. This is the Sunday of Memorial Day weekend and the Decatur Arts Festival. Unacceptable.

I refuse to have my name attached to something that people claim to care deeply about but only give half effort to make it a reality.

MondoHomo has great potential; however, great potential won’t be achieved without organization.